Slipping into Darkness

Everything goes black and my left chuck taylor foot slips
my knee hits the ground with so much pain
Damn! my levis are probably stained
these eyes of mine open to a soft focus on reality
my left heel then knee further sinks into the fantasy below
I tilt my head up to glimpse amber skies
I scream at the sun and moon
Polar to the constellation Taurus
I stand above against a desert of ink beneath me
Sagging further
sunless hues fill my view of these
Fantasies of mute colors melting the walls
again and again I fight this decent
I hook left, keep my right up and exhale with an uppercut
but without solid ground I continue to plummet
reaching out I grasp the last bit of reality
my elbows then forearms scrape pebbles, stones and sharp rocks
suddenly I am succumbed
Shock sets in and all is hopeless as what was once amber skies is swallowed
weightlessly I fall
While fiery winds stroke my extremities
and my heartbeat slows
Paralyzed, I can only witness the madness
Ice cream sticks wrapped in licorice
Limp clocks that could care less to tick
Cereal bowls of blades and corn flakes
and bare trees bare scars of flames,

As time passes
I see minutes dressed as days and years cross dressed as decades
I find myself static in a position of sitting
trying to develop meaning
As breathe becomes turtled breathing
arms limp, back slumped, head down, dreaming
might this be the place of my demise?
Stifled by silence I wait

Without warning anger unbeknownst advances
like fire on gasoline
it transforms into light in my eyes
consequently awakening and sparking life into every limb and joint
I combust into flight
soaring headfirst
with arms curled forward and fists clenched
strapped along my sides
I aviate against the sky of spotted twilight
through air searing the atmosphere
causing the sky to rip
I return

my views are blue tinted like after staring at the sun with my eyes closed
but I stand, sharpen focus, so keen
Firm winds blow but I don’t lean
Surrounding me are woven baskets of sun
waves of jade and crystal water
But something isn’t… something doesn’t seem
Right!
Amber skies and waves and shades of green
cerulean lakes, skyscraping trees
and many-colored flowers in between
these for some reason seem too perfect
almost unreal, might this be fantasy
I’m so confused
and doubt exhales views
that incite that this reality may be sight through goggles boozed
but I am not drunk or high
I just cant seem to decide whether this reality or insanity?
Or could it be a bad trip on Alice Dee aka LSD?
acid in wonderland
But where is that white rabbit?
Can I Dorothy my way out of this?
Clicking heels of rubies glittering
and counting to three
Like the Toostie roll pop
lick 1 lick 2 lick 3?
Is my view reality or fantasy?
The world may never know
Mr. Owl proceeded and told me
This Disney view seems strange I know
And perception is slow trying to sort real and fake possibility
But ultimately it is not controlled by you
Well then who? I asked
The world may never know
he said! You’ll see!

film

We peer through a mechanical eye
Painting a chemical or digital image
Frame by frame
Shots structured and artistic on occasion
Short or long collected to collage into captivating and entertaining stories
We all gather and sit in the dark
Images coax our minds out of our chairs
Into stories travel and surround ourselves
Films and movies are our soap boxes for our imaginations, our passions, our pain,
On these celluloid painted stains
Scenes play out effort not shown
6 weeks straight
3 months prep
12hr shift minimum my beard now grown
All to climax to red carpet showcase
Search lights guide millions into stadium seating
Seats and floors aren’t clean but we don’t mind
Because most of us never make it to Hollywood
So instead we suspend belief and crowd into local theaters
Where we chew loudly and yell at the screen
Shhh!
The credits scroll maybe someday I’ll see my name